The Second Apartment

A Later-in-Life Sapphic Neighbors-to-Lovers Romance
by Aurora North

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Pairing: FF (Sapphic)
Heat: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ Inferno
Tropes: Neighbors to Lovers, Later-in-Life Romance, Late Bloomer, Bi Awakening, First Time With a Woman, Older Heroines, Divorced Heroine, Photographer Romance, She Takes Charge, Light Bondage with a Safe Word, Private vs. Public, Grovel, Two Homes HEA

She finally has a life that’s all hers. The woman across the hall wants to be in it out loud.

At forty-seven, Sarah Milton finally has a place where nobody else gets a vote.

Four months divorced. Her own lease, her own keys, her own bed, and no idea which side of it she likes.

Then there’s the woman in 3A.

Jules Brandt photographs other people’s homes and keeps her own life tidy: no straight women, no projects, never stay the night. But she needs one more apartment for her gallery show, and the half-empty one across the hall belongs to a woman who looks at her like she’s just remembered she has a body.

One kiss against a door. One phone call at midnight. Twenty feet of hallway that neither of them can stay on the right side of.

Sarah was never supposed to want this much. Now she wants all of it, as long as it stays behind closed doors. And Jules has been somebody’s secret before.

The Second Apartment is a high-heat, later-in-life sapphic romance with two seasoned heroines, a first time worth waiting forty-seven years for, dual first-person POV, and an HEA guaranteed.

You’ll love this book if you enjoy:

✅ A 47-year-old divorcée in her first apartment alone, and a bookcase built with the wrong wrench
✅ An architectural photographer with three rules who swears she doesn’t shoot people
✅ Neighbors to lovers across twenty feet of hallway and one flickering sconce
✅ Bi awakening and a first time with a woman, with the lamp on
✅ Two seasoned heroines in their forties: gray hair, reading glasses, bodies that know things
✅ A quiet woman who discovers she likes to be in charge, and a composed one who loves being undone
✅ Private versus public, a lie told at a gala, and a grovel that’s done right
✅ No cheating, 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ heat and an HEA guaranteed

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⚠️ Content Warning: This novel contains extremely explicit sexual content (graphic FF scenes throughout, including phone sex, oral, fingering, tribbing, a strap-on, light restraint with a safeword, mirror play, and semi-public scenes), strong language, and alcohol. Also includes divorce and its aftermath, a heroine coming out later in life, a public lie and its fallout, references to a past relationship in which a partner was kept closeted, and a minor workplace funding loss. No cheating. Intended for readers 18+.

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Chapter One: Sarah

The instructions said one person, forty-five minutes.

I was one person. I was also two hours in, cross-legged on the floor of my new living room in pajama shorts and a Hallam Reads 5K shirt, surrounded by particleboard and holding a hammer like I had a score to settle.

Panel F would not go into Panel C. It hadn’t gone in the first time or the sixth. I’d reached the stage of furniture assembly where you start taking it personally.

So I hit it.

The bang went through the floor, out my propped-open front door, and down the third-floor hallway of the Linden like a gunshot in a library. Ten o’clock on a Wednesday. Night three in apartment 3B, and I was already that neighbor.

I hit it again anyway. It was that or cry, and I’d promised myself I was done crying over things that came with instructions.

Two knuckles rapped on my doorframe. Unhurried.

“Either you’re building something,” a woman said, “or you’re getting rid of a body, and I’d like to know which before I decide how I feel about you.”

I looked up.

She stood just outside the threshold, one shoulder not quite touching the frame. Tall. Lean. Black jeans, scuffed boots, a gray button-down with the sleeves shoved to the elbow. Dark hair cropped close, silver at the temples, the kind of silver nobody had ever apologized for. Brown eyes that took in the hammer, the wreckage, and me, in that order, and stayed on me.

“A bookcase,” I said.

“That was my second guess.”

“I’m so sorry. It’s loud. I know it’s loud, I looked at the clock and decided the clock was wrong, which is not a thing a reasonable person does, and I’m almost finished, so.”

Her gaze traveled over panels A through K, the bag of hardware split open on the floor, and the one upright I had managed to attach backward.

“Almost,” she agreed.

“I’m fine.”

“I’m sure you are.” She tipped her head at the door across the hall, twenty feet of worn carpet runner and a wall sconce that flickered like it was thinking about quitting. “Jules. 3A.”

“Sarah. 3B.”

“I’d worked that part out.” One corner of her mouth went up before the other. “Can I come in, or would you rather I heckle from here?”

Nobody had asked permission to enter a room I was in for about a quarter of a century. I gestured with the hammer. “There’s nowhere to sit.”

“I’ve sat on worse than a floor.”

She didn’t sit. She came in and dropped into a crouch across from me, heels flat, forearms resting on her knees, a position my own body had retired from in roughly 2009. She smelled like outside. Cold air, coffee, something green.

I became aware that I wasn’t wearing a bra.

It had not mattered for three days. There’d been nobody to not wear one in front of. Now I was conscious of every inch of worn cotton, of my hair clipped up in a plastic claw, of my reading glasses shoved on top of my head and the stripe of gray at my part that I’d quit coloring in April out of what I’d told my hairdresser was principle and was actually exhaustion.

Jules picked up the Allen key by my knee and turned it over. “Where’d this come from?”

“The bag.”

“The one from the bag is still taped to your instructions.”

I looked. It was. Small, silver, mocking me from page two.

“This one came out of a junk drawer,” she said.

“I packed the entire junk drawer. It seemed more efficient than sorting it.”

“It’s a four.” She held it up between two fingers. “Your bolts are fives. You’ve been turning this in a hole one size too big for two hours, which means nothing you’ve tightened is tight. C’s leaning. That’s why F won’t seat.”

“So it’s not me.”

“It was never you. You had the wrong tool. Different problem.”

Something in my chest sat down when she said it.

She dug a key ring out of her front pocket. A folding hex set hung off it, and she thumbed out one of the arms, and I waited for what came next. I knew what came next. Someone notices you’re struggling, and the thing is lifted out of your hands and done, quickly and correctly, while you stand nearby saying thank you. I had said twenty-four years of thank you.

Jules held the key out to me. Handle first.

That was all. She just held it there, steady, and waited for me to take it. A plain silver band on her thumb clicked once against the steel.

I took it. Her fingers were warm and dry and gone in under a second, and my whole hand woke up like it had been asleep.

“Thanks,” I said, and bent over bolt number one so she couldn’t see my face.

The five fit. The bolt turned and bit, and the panel pulled flush with a creak that I felt in my molars. I did the second one. The third. Across from me she hadn’t moved. Her forearms hung loose off her knees, lean and roped with the kind of muscle you get from carrying things rather than from a gym, tan down to a pale band at the wrist where a watch usually lived. A thin white scar ran near one elbow.

I was looking at a stranger’s arms.

I looked at the bolt.

“It’s righty-tighty,” I said. “Yes?”

“Is that a real question?”

“No. I’m nervous. I explain things when I’m nervous. Or ask things, apparently. That’s new.”

“What are you nervous about?”

Her voice was low and didn’t hurry, a little rough at the edges, as if she only used it when it was worth the trouble. It made the question sound like she wanted the answer.

“Being watched while I’m bad at something.”

“You’re not bad at it. You’re assembling a six-foot bookcase by yourself at ten at night with a junk-drawer wrench. That’s not bad. That’s stubborn.” She considered me. “I like stubborn. It gets furniture built.”

I laughed. It came out quiet and startled, a sound I hadn’t heard from myself in a while.

Panel F went in on the next try. Then I needed to stand the long upright on its edge and bolt it from the side, which was a job for three hands, and I had two. I braced it with my knee. It slid. I braced it with my shoulder and reached around and couldn’t see the hole.

Jules watched this with real interest and did not lift a finger.

I looked at her.

She raised her eyebrows.

“Could you,” I said.

“Could I what?”

It should have been irritating. It wasn’t. It was a door held open, and I was the one who had to walk through.

“Hold this. Please. Right here.”

She leaned in and wrapped her hand around the panel just above mine. Close enough that her sleeve brushed my bare arm. Close enough that I could see where the silver started in her hair, exactly, and a small mole under her ear.

“There?”

“There.”

The word landed somewhere low in my stomach. I attributed it to skipping dinner.

We built the rest that way. I worked; she held what I asked her to hold and nothing else, and in between she told me about the building. She’d been in 3A six years. The elevator was slow and stopped on two for no reason, which was either a ghost or the wiring, and the residents had quit asking. The left dryer in the basement ate quarters. The sconce had been flickering since 2021.

“Has anyone told the super?”

“The super’s position is that it adds character.”

“Does it?”

“It adds a headache. But you get fond of it.” She handed me a shelf peg before I’d asked, caught herself, and set it down on the floor next to my hand instead. “What’s going in this thing?”

“Books.”

“Which ones?”

I opened my mouth to list them and found the list was short. “Two boxes of paperbacks. Mysteries, mostly. They lived in the garage for nineteen years because they didn’t match the living room.”

“Did the living room have opinions?”

“My husband did. Ex-husband.” I tightened a bolt harder than it needed. “That’s recent. The ex part. Four months. Not that you asked.”

“I didn’t. I appreciate the bulletin, though.”

“I’ll put out a newsletter.”

“I’d subscribe.”

That crooked smile again, there and gone. I had the ridiculous thought that I’d like to be responsible for it more often.

“Why the door?” She nodded at the rubber wedge holding it open.

“Air. I’ve got west windows and no cross-breeze. It was eighty-one in here at six o’clock.”

“It pulls better if the door across from you is open too. The hall’s basically a chimney.” She said it to the bolt I was working on, not to me. “Old building trick.”

“Is that an offer?”

I heard it after it left my mouth. So did she. Her eyes came up, and for a second neither of us did anything with our hands.

“It’s physics,” Jules said. “But sure.”

I dropped a shelf peg and spent longer than necessary finding it.

At ten forty we stood the bookcase up against the wall. It was square. It was level. It did not wobble when I shoved it, and I shoved it twice to be sure, and then stood there with my hands on my hips feeling like I’d raised a barn.

Jules got to her feet. Both knees cracked like knuckles.

“Forty-five,” she told them.

“Forty-seven. Mine did that on the way down.”

“Then we’re even.” She looked at the bookcase and then at me, and the look lasted a beat longer than a bookcase warranted. “Nice work.”

I held the hex set out to her.

“Keep it till you run out of furniture. I know where you live.”

“Is there anything—” I started, in the voice I used for volunteers and visiting board members. Can I get you anything, do you need anything, is everyone all right. I stopped. I didn’t own a second glass.

“Do you need anything else?” she asked.

“No. I’m fine.”

“That’s twice.”

“Twice what?”

“Nothing.” She was already at the door. “Goodnight, 3B.”

She crossed the hall. Twenty feet. She walked like she had all night to get there, loose from the hips, one hand trailing her keys, and the bad sconce flickered over her shoulders, and I stood in my doorway and watched every step.

Her door closed.

I realized what I was doing and straightened the collar of a T-shirt that didn’t have one.

I had never lived alone. Not for one night.

There was my parents’ house on Carver Street. A dorm room with a girl named Trish who ate tuna out of the can. Then David at twenty-three, and twenty-four years of David, the last fourteen months of them spent in the guest room of my own house while two lawyers divided the furniture.

Now there was this. Eight hundred square feet with west windows and white walls, a lease with one signature on it, and a queen bed I had picked out myself.

I was proud of the bed. I’d lain on eleven mattresses in a showroom while a salesman named Corey hovered, and I’d bought the one I liked instead of the one on sale. It was the first thing over five hundred dollars I had ever purchased without a conversation.

The sheets were white. I’d stood in the aisle for a full five minutes holding a set the color of a ripe plum, and then I’d put it back and bought white, because white was sensible and went with everything, and I didn’t yet own anything for it to go with.

I got into it at eleven fifteen and lay on my back and looked at my ceiling. Mine.

It took me a minute to notice where I was.

I was on the left. All the way on the left, six inches from the edge, one arm tucked against my ribs so it wouldn’t cross an invisible line down the mattress. The whole right side lay smooth and cool and untouched as a hotel bed.

I was saving room. For a man who lived eleven miles away and didn’t want it.

“Oh, for God’s sake,” I said out loud.

I moved to the middle. I spread my arms. I spread my legs, which felt obscene, and lay there like a starfish in my own bed in my own apartment with all the room in the world.

It felt like lying on a stage.

I lasted about four minutes. Then I rolled back to the left, to the worn groove my body thought it belonged in, and pulled the sheet up, and hated how much better that was.

Tomorrow. I’d take the middle tomorrow.

The apartment made its noises. The refrigerator ticked and hummed. Somewhere in the walls the elevator groaned up its shaft and stopped, probably on two. Night one I’d slept in my clothes on top of the comforter, like a guest. Night two I had checked the deadbolt four times. This was supposed to be the night it started feeling like mine.

No one breathed next to me. No one turned over, or coughed, or got up for water and let the tap run too long. I’d wanted exactly this, wanted it so badly I’d blown up a life to get it, and it was so quiet that I could hear my own pulse.

I had left the bathroom light on. I told myself that was so I wouldn’t trip.

I wasn’t lonely. I was alone, which was a different thing, a thing I had chosen and paid a security deposit on. Nobody got a vote here. Not on the mattress, not on the paperbacks, not on whether I ate crackers for dinner standing at the counter. For the first time since I was a child my life had exactly one opinion in it.

I just didn’t know yet what the opinion was.

In three days I’d learned that I liked the windows open and the radio off. That was the complete inventory. Forty-seven years old, and I could fit my own preferences on a sticky note with room left over.

Under the front door, a bar of yellow light from the hallway lay across my floor. I watched it for a while.

She’d seemed capable. That was the word. Jules from 3A seemed like a very capable person, with capable hands, and it was pleasant to know that someone capable lived twenty feet away. In case of emergencies.

I thought about how capable she was for quite some time.

Thursday I broke down the first nine boxes and stacked the cardboard by my front door to take to the basement.

That was at six fifteen. At ten to seven it was still by my front door, because the stack had needed straightening, and then sorting by size, and then I’d found some packing tape to peel off. I was not waiting for the elevator. I had simply spent thirty-five minutes arranging cardboard within earshot of it.

The elevator groaned. The doors shuddered open.

I picked up all nine boxes at once.

It was too many. I knew that with my arms around them. Flattened cardboard is slick, and I had it clamped against my chest with my chin on top and my door propped behind me with one heel, and I’d made it a full three steps into the hall when the middle of the stack shot out like a deck of cards.

Boxes fanned across the runner. One slid all the way to a pair of scuffed boots and stopped.

Jules looked down at it. Then at me.

She had a long black bag slung across her back, a hard case in one hand, and a camera hanging on a wide strap around her neck. Dust on her jeans to the knee. She looked tired and windburned and entirely too good, and I had the absurd urge to check my hair.

“Two trips is legal, you know,” she said.

“I’ve heard.”

“In this state, anyway.”

She set down the case. I got ready, again, for the rescue, the brisk gathering-up, here, let me. She bent and picked up one box. The one at her feet. She handed it to me and let me see to the other eight.

I was beginning to suspect she did it on purpose.

“You look like you knocked over a camera store,” I said, from the floor.

“I look like I spent nine hours in a stranger’s kitchen waiting for the sun to move.”

“Is that a hobby or a cry for help?”

“It’s a job. I photograph homes.”

“Like real estate?”

“God, no.” She said it with real feeling. “Real estate is houses pretending nobody lives in them. I shoot the ones where somebody obviously does. Architects hire me. Magazines, when they’re feeling brave. If the dishes in the sink are the point, the dishes stay in the sink.”

“Whose kitchen was it today?”

“A retired welder up in Kingston. Forty years of cast iron on one wall, hung by size, and a chair by the stove nobody else is allowed to sit in.” Something eased in her face when she talked about it. “You could tell exactly who she was from the doorway. I barely needed her in the house.”

“So you didn’t take her picture. The welder.”

“I don’t shoot people.”

It came out flat, like a policy. Her thumb had found the edge of the camera strap and was moving along it, slowly, back and forth.

“Why not?”

“They pose. The second a lens comes up, everybody turns into who they think they ought to be.” The thumb kept going. “A room can’t do that. A room tells you who lives in it whether they like it or not.”

I got the last box under my arm and stood. My door hung open behind me. And Jules, who had so far been polite about it, looked past my shoulder into my apartment.

It was not a glance. She looked the way a doctor reads an X-ray, and I turned and saw it with her. White walls. A table for four with one chair pulled out. The bookcase standing empty in the corner, straight as a soldier. Eleven more boxes in my handwriting: KITCHEN. MISC. MISC 2. Nothing hung, nothing leaning, an overhead light blazing because I didn’t own a lamp.

Three days ago it had looked like freedom. With her eyes on it, it looked like a waiting room.

“The bookcase held,” she said.

“It did. I keep walking past it to feel smug.”

“You should.” She was still looking. “What do you want it to feel like in here?”

“Oh, well, it needs a rug. Obviously. And a couch, I’ve been measuring, and something for that long wall, I thought maybe a mirror to open it up, and—”

“That’s a shopping list.” She wasn’t unkind about it. Her eyes came back to me, brown and very direct. “I asked what you want it to feel like.”

I opened my mouth.

Nothing was in it.

I could have told her what David would want: leather, and a television the size of a door. I could have told her what my mother thought a woman my age ought to have, what my daughter would find depressing, what was tasteful, what was practical, what would resell. I knew what everybody wanted. I’d made a career and a marriage out of knowing it before they did.

I stood in the hallway holding nine pieces of cardboard, and I couldn’t answer a question about my own living room.

“I don’t know,” I said.

I waited for her to fill it in for me. People did. Cozy, they’d say. You seem like a cozy person.

Jules nodded as though I’d given her something.

“Okay.”

“Okay?”

“It’s a better answer than the fast one. People who answer fast say ‘warm’ and then go buy a gray sectional.”

“I looked at a gray sectional.”

“Of course you did.”

There it was, one side and then the other, and I felt it in the backs of my knees.

She picked up her case. “Tell me when you figure it out. I’d like to know.”

She meant it. That was the trouble. She walked her twenty feet and fit her key in the lock of 3A, and she said over her shoulder, without turning around, “Sarah. Two trips.”

Her door shut.

I carried all nine boxes down in one trip, out of spite, and dropped four of them on the stairs.

It was only when I got back up, sweating, that I put my hand in my cardigan pocket and found her hex set. I’d carried it to work that morning. I’d carried it home.

I had stood three feet from her and I hadn’t given it back.

At one in the morning I was on the left side of the bed again, wide awake, thinking about a woman’s hands.

Not on purpose. They just kept arriving. The way she’d held that key out and waited. Her fingers closed around the panel a half inch above mine, and the tendons standing up in her wrist. That silver ring. Her thumb on the camera strap, most of all, that slow absent stroke back and forth, the way you’d gentle something skittish.

I wondered what else she did with that much patience. Then I wondered it in some detail: that thumb, unhurried, on skin instead of canvas. On the inside of a wrist. A thigh.

Heat rolled up my body so fast I pushed the sheet down. My nipples had gone tight and sore against my T-shirt. Between my legs there was a low, thick pulse I recognized the way you recognize a song from high school, and when I shifted my hips I found I was wet. Slick with it. Forty-seven years old, alone on the edge of a queen bed, soaked through my underwear over my neighbor’s thumb.

That had not happened in years. I had truly believed that part of me had gone quiet for good, packed in a box somewhere marked MISC.

I knew what this was. It had a name.

Admiration.

Women admire each other. It’s practically a civic duty. I had admired the captain of the field hockey team in 1996, and a pediatrician with beautiful wrists in 2004, and the woman who taught my Saturday spin class for most of 2015, whose thighs I had admired so faithfully I never missed a session. I had a long and distinguished record of admiration. It had never once meant anything, because I’d never once let it.

I pressed my thighs together. That made it worse. It made it so much worse that a sound got out of me, small and cracked, in the dark.

So I lay there with both hands flat on top of the covers like a woman in a Victorian portrait and did nothing about it. I just ached. I admired Jules from 3A until almost two o’clock, in detail, with her sleeves shoved up.

Somewhere in there an answer came to me about what I wanted this place to feel like. It wasn’t about furniture, and I refused to look straight at it.

I’d had a life of my own for exactly three nights. I was not about to hand it over to a pair of forearms.

It was admiration. I was fine.

Even I could count that one.

Three.

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